The Rebuild

The rebuild that never ends.

I have stopped dreaming of the end result. Given up and resigned myself to the everyday.

Those unremarkable tasks, the small decisions, the mundane hello’s and circling thoughts. Barely taking a step or two forward.

Wondering at times what I did of importance with my day.

No more grand gestures, no more disappointment in myself for not accomplishing. Just resigned to breathing and doing what was needed in the moment.

And then the ugly truth became visible.

I was building all along. Living IS honest and worthy. I am not the same person I was last week. I am better. I am older, more experienced.

Rebuilding is forever and suddenly that is the point.